Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham friends.



A lot has happened these past months, and instead of phrasing them into confusing words, I will tell, as much as possible, the truth beneath no veil.

I met a boy, who was the sweetest thing since Nerds and Wonka Bars. He made me feel like I was worth something. Like I was capable of being loved. So I tried, and with uncertain, befuddled steps, I took them with no regrets, willingly to your arms. I knew your quirks, understood what you were like, even without laying sight on you. And the casual, little things you do made my heart flutter like butterflies and the bees. I don't know what was it that you did, or how you held my attention like balloons to a 5 year old.

But what you did, threw my heart asunder. The understanding of your actions that grip me to the core, and the thing that I felt most foreign about you, is the fact that you could throw this all away without a second's thought. The fact that you would back down, to childish, trivial ways of your words.

But the only person, who could make this all right, who could make this all better, was you.

But I didn't let all my hurt, all my anger leak out of me. Passion, thriving to be heard, beating in my ears, I pour into my art form, through song, dance, sketches. I grew to live without the thought of you lingering in my head, without a part of you fused so inseperably with a part of me.

I understood, I accepted all you threw at me.

And now, I couldn't have been any better.



Because of that, I found, through losing you, the essence of you I could imagine through the fabric on my t-shirts, the scent I begun to forget led me to something new. And in so many ways, the odds began to look better and better. I begun to understand what it was like again.

That's how I found out who I was.

Weird, crazy, hyper, delusional, emotional, wild, free, out of control, quirky, bizarre, idiosyncratic, outre, peculiar, unorthodox, random.

And for that person who managed to take it all in, my funny ways, and the things I disliked, the person who I became through losing a part of me, the person who I never thought I would become.

For every single time you show that you care, and that you will love me for what it's worth, and that you trust me. God it feels like I'm being reborn again. I love you, whatever the hell it takes, however crazy this love is. I owe you that, and so much more.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

best day of 2010.

It was super bisexing Lawrence Sim's Birthday party yesterday.
I hope you liked the 1 year old card I gave you.
And the 4 guitar picks.
Especially the purple one I picked out specially B)
The ones Haris picked were ugly :D
My baby with the chinesse eyes.
Sexxx... ;)
love you.
Rahrah Melissa ;) my sexy.
Ignore my ugly face B)
sexy lexie.
I just like this picture :)
Last but not least, cause he's ginormous.
Chu! The biggest strongest form 4 I've seen :)



By far the best day of the year.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

:)



You are the most random of things. I can't see you in the dark, except I can see your teeth. Hee. Your teases are the worst things in the world. Your advice still scares me at how girl like they are, and how much they make sense. You're weird. You ask weird things. You hold my purple file. You go home way too early after school. You are the reason behind my smiles. And I am an ice cream :)

So fly.

Totally flunked science, gah. My brain feels screwed up.
I think I can get another A for my history though.
Fingers crossed on BM D:
I got 100 for econs last term.
Gaahhh, gotta do well again. Geeez.

Anywaaay, this is Shea Chew. The craziest Cat in the world, and my partner B) See you thursday. *sings*
Naddy and I before our duet.
Gaaahh, I'm really scared for the next round.
It's so freakin sooon :(
But we'll get there, yes, yes we will B)

Dance was superrrrr. Mr Zack liked the choreo. Ms Sharon was like, explosion, explosion. Ms Hoo has short term memory loss, and has to watch it again, so no comment :/ Richard and Joon Yang liked it. So, overall.

84.9

Pretty impressed. And crazy happy :)

Hahaha. And ps, i'll tell you by this Saturday, if you still can't figure it out ;)

Friday, April 2, 2010

Ass.

School's been extremely hectic as usual. Naddy and I got through duet singing for prelims, and we're working on something crazy amazing for the next round ;) Modern dancing was todaaay, and it was sexx. The stunts turned out well, no one fell and the ending was like WTFROFLOLMFAO! :D

The video's on FB with Naddy. Go like it (if you do of course ;D).




Exams are coming up and I haven't touched my books. Been busy with school and all :( sigh. Ballet exams, Lawrence's birthday, school exams, cats, cheer, open day. EEEP.

Where am I going to find time to LIVE!?

EDIT:

GUESS WHAAAT. JENNER'S TOP AGAIN FOR DAAANCEE!!!! :D :D :D :D OH, YEAH WE OWNNN ;)