Tuesday, October 14, 2008

cinquante un. ce n'est pas la bonne.




Somethings I doooooodle over the year . Haha . Nothing much (:
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I crash , I mark my own downfalls . There's no compassion in those eyes , those that seek me out just to watch me suffer , the sadistic pleasure glinting in the fire . I'm weak , the lungs that tick my time away , the sand that falls from each seconds that go by . Feeble , fray , puny , scrawny , weedy , pathetic , fragile , frail .

The night glowers and my eyes still beseech for one . How one breath could freeze all the blood in my body . I'm still finding , walking down the endless path . No guidelines , no stars to lead my way . Just me , standing alone . Waiting for the sea to sweep me up , waiting for the sun to burn me down .

And that might just be it .

Maybe if I had waited ? Would anything have ever changed ? Smiling , so twinging , the mere action of pulling up the edges of these lips , the disputable lies that plaster on my face . No I'm not lonely , I'm just hanging in there . Just waiting for a moment , a single syllable to find it's way from the bare of your lips . Just wanting , a sight of that ivory skin against mine , the sickly sweet smell of your curls .

Is that too much to ask ?
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Nicole (:
For all those times we laughed ,
for all those times we fought and cried .
I'd trade it for a day you be alive ,
and not remember me ,
nor my name .

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