250. And as a legend dies, the daylight grows all too dim.

Tragic as this day seems,

the daylight had nought but grow dim.

And the frown in the sky,

And the trees wilt and flowers die.

Smooth criminal lean (:

Toe lifts :D

? :D

MJ dancing like a rockstar.

Poser :D

Thriller

One of his live concerts.

Crotch pop :D

______________________________________

Michael Jackson

How ironic that the world abandoned him for such inhumane accusations, and yet when he passes on, all the fanatical hypocrites mourn his death. Michael Jackson has always been weird and whether or not he could have escaped this death and live till 100, he would have done 10 more plastic suguries to his nose, and lipo-desuck his cheeks, and saw off his jaw bones.

He's Michael Jackson. The weirdo guy who named his child an everyday item, and I think that without him in the world, there wouldn't have been any form of dance we've had today.

And as a legend dies, the dayligt grows all too dim.

249. You've got the right stuff, baby.

Today has been diviningly BORING. Dancing around the class was pretty fun I guess. And I've been finding ways to spin SUPER fast, but failing of course, sometimes (but not noticed), almost upskirting and falling down (: But not a lot of people know so it's okay.

Gavin came to class today, looking extremely bored. Haha. Which is bad news cause the choreo must be boring O_________________o BUT NEVERMIND.

WE WILL GET IT IN TIME.

STOP THUMPING MY POOR BEATING HEART.

248. A tad too late, perhaps?

Laos's cute little kiddos (:

Laos.

Typical Nicole Holiday.

(:

Typical.

Anyway. Just some random stuff.
It's about 2.15am.
Too lazy to do them systematically.
(:

DID YOU KNOW ABOUT MY NEW PIERCING?

Bet you did (:

NOT.

kidding :D

ANYWAY.

Some of the pretty places we visited.

The hotel (:

NIGHT.

247. You'll live in my memories forever more I swear.

Ballet concert was just over.
Had lots of fun (:

Tired.

PS:
THANKS YU HUI AND JOSHY JOSHUA FOR COMING :D
Love you guys to bits.

PPS:
Thanks Shaun and Ryan too :D
(and my ahma.)
(and Ah Teeh)
Shaun says for the support (:


NIGHT.
So sleepy.

246. Right under my feet is air made of bricks, that pulls me down, turns me weak for you.

God. This kid makes me burst and bleed (:

BALLET CONCERT.

SOB.

I'm so scared I might just pee into my new leotard.

And I MIGHT just not have my eternal backbones going ):

It's okay Shaun/Ryan, you can laugh at me next time.

I don't care, I'm going to stuff myself with McD's tomorrow.

I havent had a bite in FOREVER.

In fact, I'm in a OVERSIZED mood for WENDYS DOUBLE TROUBLE (FAT) SHRIMP BURGER.

Yumyum.

Rehersal's from 11pm, then I gotta wait till 2pm before the next one starts.

Gah, this is killing me.

PS:

DANCE PREVIEWS THIS FRIDAY.

WHAT THE EFF?

HOW THE FREAKING HELL DID I NOT KNOW THIS?
SOB.

MY ANTI SOCIAL LIFE IS FINALLY DAWNING ON MY REALITY.

EEK.

244. Melt my heart to stone.

Brian "Buyoiyoi" Fucanan

Andrew "Goodfoot" Baterina
Brian "Burna" Puspos

Jackie "Jackstar" Lautchang

Ailyn "Eye Candy" Isidro

PAT LAM :D

The cutest of all (:

They came second for Season 2.

Which was kinda sad.

But still.

QUEST CREW!

All time favourite (:

242. When we hug, it's an awkward tangle of limbs.

Yay, we're at school.

(:

Yu Hui's promising me a nail spa for my birthday.

I'LL BE WAITING BITCH.

:D

<3

Ps: My birthday's in August but WHO CARES ? NYEHEH HEH HEH .

241. I love the way you scream like a 12 year old girl.

Now, I know what your arms feel like when they're around me.
They fit.
Perfectly.

240. I love you. You love someone else. It’s not really complicated. But day by day I find it harder to understand.

Under the smudged black ink of every letter I write you is another letter entirely, a secret love letter in whispers and foolish hopes and the invisible ink of my breath.

-Felix

i deleted your number from my phone 8 months ago, but i still have it memorized.

-jay

if you haven’t realized it by now, helloooo, i’m here, i’m waiting, i love you. if we have something it will be beautiful.
-anonymous

I put our names into one of those love meters. We got 100%
- A


You sit in parks with me. You allow me to give you dinosaur nicknames. You joke around about leaving me for my brothers.Do you know that you are perfect? I do.
- Kaysiraptor


I love how your toes curl in when you get excited while playing video games, and how you laugh like a 12 year old girl.
- The girl accross the hall


All the thoughts I could voice that would change nothing – thoughts that cannot slow the world – dwell still at my core. I move and can feel them, pushing out from under. They are there, within, nonce purposed and left. No bursting forth will come; there is no salvation for the parceled out heart. The body senses what is gone and at the same time realizes that the pieces that remain are not meant to do, that these holes cannot be plugged from within.


But these are not the pains of forgetting, wounds left unnoticed until times of crisis. No, these legs of whales are constant and ever kicking out from inside. I feel them when I go to speak, they try to run and leap – to bridge the distance between us. That look of anguish on face, the appearance as if I have been gut-punched, it is all true. To speak to you is to be kicked from the inside.
— jeff


i like it when you awkwardly shuffle your feet next to mine in math class.
— b


to the sad girl in chem,
please smile. please?
— anonymous

you might read this, because we talk on IM every night and share links, and i might be silly enough to send this one to you. i love you. i love that we love music and being creative and idealistic and that you are a careful driver and we both like zombie movies and that we can almost-cuddle on a couch without having to say a word. and you cook the best spaghetti ever. and even if we’ll always just be best friends, that’s okay.
— m

I’ll see you soon, I’ll out run the moon. I’ll hold your hands and warm your heart until you need me. Just tell me you love me. Persistence. remember? i love you and i am waiting.
— i

and i know i haven’t said it to your face in years, but… i love you. irrevocably and unconditionally.
— the girl in the black tee and plaid pajama pants

<3

239. The creases in your eyes, I've memorized.

QUEST!
And Hok loves purple. Yay, something in common. That I have known waaay long ago ( :

Anyway.
VERY BUSY.
Qistina's sweet sixteen is coming up this friday and I don't know if I can go. I would like to though, I must say. My partying skills are lousy, and I need to get back in shape. LOOL.

I have my BALLET CONCERT this Saturday. Oh god. My nerves are inching up my spine. I've got 9 tickets, sold one to a man who came back all the way from Dubai to see his daughter perform (awh!)

4 for my parents, Lucas, Leon. Shaun, Ryan, Yu Hui BITCH, and Nasri (:
Hopefully, Nasri won't fall asleep halfway but I bet he won't. Ryan and Lucas and Shaun will be sizing up the girls to be POTENTIAL hotties. Bet he wouldn't wanna miss out on that.

YEAH.

Got my besties in the whole world coming to see me perform in beach suits and goggles.

Btw.

MY CORN. OH GOD.
I NEED TO GET RID OF IT.
TODAY.

THIS IS A REMINDER.

STUPID NICOLE.

KEEPS FORGETTING.

That was me talking to myself ( :

TOODLES!

238. FML LOLMFAO.

Oh god.
Sometimes I want to feel so sad for these people.
But I can't.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Today, I made a patient really happy. I work in a long term care facility and was changing a woman's diaper. While cleaning her, I somehow managed to give her an orgasm with a warm wash cloth. FML

Today, I was cleaning out my fiance's room while he was away so we could move into our new home. Not only did I find a few gay nudie mags, but also some interesting love letters from a nice man named Pablo. Apparently I need to do a lot more than cleaning his room to excite him. Like grow a penis. FML

Today, my band had a show. We played a love song, and during the bridge, I ask out a friend of mine who was in the crowd, over the mic, in front of at least 200 people. She said no. FML

Today, I went on a date with my boyfriend. Suddenly he starts speaking gibberish. I ask what's wrong? He says, "I was just talking to my unicorn. He says you're pretty," and winks at me. What have we learned today? The person I like is a freak, and apparently unicorns are real. FML

Today while eating with my kids at McDonalds, my son put his hand up and wanted me to give him a "high five." I went to give him a five, but he moved his hand at the last second and I ended up slapping him in the face. Now everyone there thinks i'm a child-beater. FML

Today, I was helping a couple come up with a name for the baby they just had. I suggested "Joshua" thinking that it was an okay name. All sudden, the room got quiet. Turns out I had forgotten that Joshua was the name of their 3 year old son who had died a couple months before. FML

Today, I had my first appearance in a court as an attorney. I called the prosecution the prostitution. FML

Today, I was in the cafeteria when I noticed a new worker cleaning a table. As I passed her, she looked up and smiled at me. Thinking she was pulling a funny face, I jokingly crossed my eyes and smiled back. She looked hurt and continued working. Later, she served me my lunch. She was actually cross-eyed. FML

Today, I was sitting in class and I fell asleep during the lesson. I was wearing sweatpants and had an erection. My teacher came up to me and grabbed my penis. She thought it was my phone. FML

Today, I had drunk sex with a girl that I barely know. I didn't have a condom and was nervous about getting her pregnant, but she assured me that I could pull out. Right when I was about to pull out, she wrapped her legs around me and yelled : "BE MY BABY'S DADDY!" I couldn't get out in time. FML

Today, I bit my boyfriend's neck. I felt something squirt into my mouth. Turns out I had just popped a pimple on his neck. Into my mouth. FML

Today, my tampon string was hanging from my bathing suit. My boyfriend thought it was a thread hanging from my bikini bottom. He publicly pulled out my tampon. FML

Today, we got our yearbooks for school. I opened to my profile to see that they misspelled my first name which is James. They wrote Lames. FML

237. Catching fairytales with our heads.

I STOLE THIS OFF SOMEONES BLOG I FORGOT WHO.

AHH. I LOVE ZAC EFRON.
MARRY ME, RETARD.

Oh wait, you've got bad taste in women.

No wonder you're not dating me.

; D

HAHAHAHA.

236. Happy happy birthdays.

Yay. It's ma baby's birthday :D

Actually, belated but WHO CARES ?

I LOVE YOU BABY.

<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA JORDAN!

( :

Hope you had a great time with my bitch.

Miss you guys :D

235. A mellifuous, honeyed trip down the lane to no where.

I haven't been able to post up the pictures from Laos because I lost the stupid retarded usb cable.

God. Home has been a total bore. My typing skills have reduced to only my pointing fingers, yes I point very rudely. I have resorted to word abuse on my blog, full of swear words and what not.

I'm going to try and stop! ( :

Anyway, I still can't believe Zac Efron is going to marry Vanessa Fuckface.

I just doubled back on my words. Oh, the irony. Dramatic sigh. Boohoo.

School's starting.

Tomorrow's the last day, the last day, the last day.

Gotta arrange dance practise.

Ugh.

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Dance in my house.
1pm.

234. They are part of the list, things that I miss.

Neyo rocks my yellow socks.

Part of the List- Neyo

Style of your hair,
shape of your eyes and your nose,
the way you stare

As if you see,
right through to my soul,
It's your left hand and the way
that it's not quite as big as your right,
the way you stand in the mirror
before we go out at night,

Our quiet time,
your beautiful mind,

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

The way you sweet smell
lingers when you leave a room,
Stories you tell as we layin bed all afternoon.
I dreamed you now every night
in my mind is where we meet.
and when I'm awake
staring at pictures of you asleep.

Touching your face,
invading you space.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss
.Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up withsomething new,
every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

Oooh, and you'll live in my memories forever more
I swear.
And you'll live in my memories forever more
I swear.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile, or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

233. KCG <3

China.

God, I miss you guys so much.

232. You are on my to kill list. Tough luck.

You.

Yes, you over there, with your overpowering smell of cheap deoderant. Your messy, very sakai looking, retarded, overgrown, out of shape, sticky, long, smelly, oily looking, thick hair. Your constant abuse of physical attractiveness to get retarded, bimbo loserheads down your pants. Your long streak of lost loves, and severe depression, and a longing want to kill yourself everytime a girl confuses your pathetic excuse of a mind. Your euphoria when they swoon and practically jump off their apartment buildings and throw themselves at your smelly, weird looking feet. Your extremely disgusting, yet wondrous inability to be able to kiss a girl without slobering all over her face like a fucking huge rott weiler. Your stale, dry, lame sense of humour. And your puny, sick, twisted mind, punny, just like the size of your ugly, hairy, disgusting, 1 finger long, little, kids wiener.

You. Are on my to kill list.

And I will enjoy every single moment torturing you to death.

I will spit on your face in my death bed. I would stab at your eyes if I'm blind. I would poke at your ears with a stake if I'm deaf. I would dunk your head into a smelly, soiled toilet bowl to make you smell better. I would stick your foot into a blender. I would grind your pale, excess meat and feed it to your younger brother, who has more that he needs too. I would stuff your younger brother's lighted ciggies down your pants to sizzle up the hair and uncover that little schmeckle of yours, and burn that to crisps too.

Don't expect me to sympathize with you, baby.

I'm on a fucking roll, and there's nothing you can do about it.

Good luck! (:

Manbitch.

231. 17again.

I went to ou with Eli yesterday and we went on a movie marathon (:

The first one was 17 AGAIN.

I AM BEING A TYPICAL FAN GIRLY GIRL AND I AM IN LOVE WITH ZAC EFRON.

So for that I give theshow

9/10

He's an idiot to have kids with Vanessa Stupidface.

Nothing against her though (:

I JUST WANNA LICK HIM.

Sex on legs.