Vingt Cinq Ans. Les Dix Choses .

Lucas Chen (:

1. we talk alot at night

2. I like thaat he has more pimples than me !

3. He always insults my younger brother .

4. I dont think he resembles me .

5. He manipulates me into believing something is nice to eat .

6. The inability to close cupboards or drawers.

7. Likes to loosen his shoelaces ALOT before he wears them.

8. That there is a certain depth to his life.

9. His craziness.

10. Talking in his sleep (:

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The things I would never change about him (:

His love for poetry

His ability to write and make someone cry

His want to confide in me

His whacked out sense of humour

His love of flying

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Things I can never imagine him doing (:

Having to father his 3 beautiful young kids , while his wife goes off for a holiday . Still can find his children after an hour ( I think he would lose them within the hour that his wife leaves ) if they're running around . Losing his sense of humour .

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Shaun Tan (:

1. He can REALLY dance.

2. He can REALLY play basketball.

3. He can REALLY play football.

4. He can REALLY run.

5. He can REALLY REALLY be blur .

6. He loves techno.

7. He likes making my teletubbies shuffle .

8. He fills in the place where Lucas cant (:

9. He has a DAMN NICE BODY .

10. He's REALLY addicted to the comp. Haha

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The things I would never change about him (:

His hard hair.

His ability to dance, run, do sports, and study.

His obliviousness to the world.

The fact that he stays so close.

He's inability to accept defeat (:

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Things I can never imagine him doing (:

NOTHING .

Maybe becoming old , whithered and play chess for entertainment (:

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Ryan Tan (:

1. He sings in the shower .

2. He sings everywhere .

3. Bad things always happen to him.

4. He's such a sweetheart.

5. He's the most polite person I've ever met.

6. His god damn crazy bowling.

7. His kai shots in basketball.

8. HIS BODY .

9. He's sooo cutee .

10. He uses football as boobs (:

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The things I would never change about him (:

His carefreeness !

His politeness.

His way of looking at things.

His curly hair.

I wont ever want him to grow up :/

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Things I cannot imagine him doing (:

Having a full on job with a loving wife and 2 kids living in a mansion . Having to always be serious when it comes to work , and rejoices the fact that he has more . He'd always be the kid in my eyes (:

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Adrian Tan (:

1. He's a 17 year old in a 12 year old body.

2. Whatdup tuts, gets me everytime :D

3. He's crazy about dota.

4. WANNA BET.

5. He has a gay aura around him.

6. He's reluctant to give hugs ( only if there are oranges)

7. Looks innocent when he sleeps. (LOOKS)

8. Laughes like a maniac with his eyebrows creasing.

9. Has the softest hair in the world.

10. Never stops being anoying.

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The things I would never change about him (:

His catch phrases .

His too-old-for-his-body thing .

His competitiveness.

His ugly laugh :D

His hair

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Things I cannot imagine him doing (:

Having a girlfriend in about 3 years time , who's talented and great at everything . Doing well in his studies and want nothing to do with the computer . Growing taller than Lucas :D . However , I can imagine him getting beat up by gangsters cause he's a big mouth .

HAHA .

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Nicole (:

Your slow shaking fingertips,

show,

that you're scared like me,

so let's just pretend we're alone.

Vingt Trois . Les Yeux Et La Peur .

Haha . It looks upside down (:
Black eye (:
The colour was always blue , but it changed :/
This is like frosting (: I loovee dancing (:

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Yes . Michael Phelps is the one to beat .
He's so awesome and he swims like a fish .
His feet are so hugeee !
And his butterfly is so graceful and elegant .
I love him .
But too bad he's not in Malaysia .
Or else Malaysia will host the Olympics 2012 .


Imaginee ...




KUALA LUMPUR OLYMPICS 2012 .



It sounds like smelly fish mixed with over ripe orange .

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Nicole (:

Vingt-Deux. La Mort Est Une Bénédiction.

This was last year with my cousin (:
Hi Nicholas (:
Nicholas is really good at pool :/
Haha . Nicolelas xD . I mean Nicholas
My cousins from my dad's side (:

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Nicole (:

Vingt .Tu Es Mon Amour .

Ryan . Watching Charlie the Unicorn with me (:
Ryan . At his mum's birthday (:
Ryan . FLYING :D
Ryan . With his pillow (:
Ryan . From last year (:

Ryan jumping into the water (:
Ryan after eating (:
Ryan sleeping (:
Ryan lala post (:
Ryan digigng his nose . With my brother , Leon (:

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Ryan

I loooovie you , Ryaan . You're such a silly muthu (:

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Nicole (:

Vingt. Mon Meilleur Ami.

Shaun . Want to Da Kau :D
Shaun . The Singer (:
Shaun . Holding my handbag . The gay :D
Shaun . Behind me (:
Shaun in the MIRROR :D

Shaun with Ryan (:
Shaun . Again (:
Shaun the Sleeper (:
Shaun using his phone (:
Shaun , using his phone again (:

Shaun . Full out Model with Lucas (:
Shaun . The Girl (:
Shaun . The Poser (:
Shaun . The half naked with Lucas (:
Shaun . The Surprised (:

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Shaun (:

Was there any week since we've met that we haven't seen each other ? Haha . I remembered the first time I met you and Ryan . You guys were so likable . We met at the pool in Tropicana , and you and Ryan were so alike , but so different . Yeah , we've watched each other grow since 6 years ago . We've all changed , but your charms stayed the same . The only thing that has chnaged is our physical appearances , like how fat I am now , and how toned you are now , and how much more crazier Lucas is , and how much more matured Ryan is . Okay , not that much of Ryan but we still love him dont we (:

Anyway , just want to take this posts to thank you for everything you've done . For confiding in me , for letting me confide in you , for letting me show my anger without you thinking different of me , for being there for laughs , even if you dont know what to do if I cried . Haha . Sometimes , I feel like you're part of my family , and I , of yours . Lucas has felt exactly the same way as I do , and I'm sure of you and Ryan too . Come to think of it , we are family . Me , you , Ryan , Lucas .

No one can take that away from us .

I love you , Shaun (:

Hahahaha .

See you in 7 hours (:

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Nicole (:

Dix-Neuf. Histoire D'Amour Fou .

"I'm glad I know you, silly girl," he laughed, nudging my head. He slipped his arm around my shoulder casually. "Yeah well, everyone's glad to know me," I smiled. He nudged me again and drowned his latte in a huge gulp. He sighed and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. I hit him on his shoulder, and felt the sharp pang of pain because of his muscles. "You've grown. But you haven't changed," I laughed, calling for the bill. "You know I'd never change. But I would if you asked me to," he teased. I picked up the tab and walked out of the shop. "You coming?" I asked. He ran after me and tickled me. "I'll bring you home. Let's go."

We walked to his convertible, and I propped myself onto the seat headrest. "Drive!" I laughed. He started the engine and started down the road. The sun started to go down behind the hills and I watched it, idolizing it's fiery beauty and perfection. My mind was so absorbed I didnt see him take a different turn down the road. "Jake, where are you bringing me?" I said, after a moment of silence and realization. He parked his car in front of a cliff, just before a deep plunge into a thick forest. "Go up front, I'll go there soon," he smiled. I hopped out of the car and sat in front of the windshield, up on the hood. Soon, he came and sat next to me, now his arm went around my waist, and my head found my way to his shoulder.



"What are we doing here?" I said, cocking my head to look up at him. He looked down at me, drawing a deep long breath. "This."



The moment his lips touched mine, my body seared up in flames. His passion flowed through into me as he pulled me closer to his body. I could feel every inch of his succulent body, every part of his burned with a love so strong, it could kill. I felt his heart beating against his chest, his blood pulsating through under his skin. I couldn't stop this, no matter how much I tried. I was drowning in too deep, too deep to try to stop. So I savoured the moment, every second of it broken down into millions of fractions in my mind, so I could remember it all. When he pulled back, we were both out of breath. His chin hovered over my head.



He pulled me closer to his body and I leaned on his chest. Our heat was seeping away in the wind, and we just layed there, quiet, calm. We watched the magnificent sunset. We watched as the moon reigned the sky with it's soft silverish glow, accompanied by the stars, lighting up the world like burning torches. "Thank you, for being with me. Thank you for everything you've done for me, even if I was bitchy like a girl. Thank you," he smiled. I closed my eyes and soaked up all his words.



"Thank you for being in my world, for making me feel complete and whole again. Thank you, because I dont think I could thank you enough for all you've done."

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White dress,

I play with it,

I flick here,

A swipe there.

Hey look,

You're red.

And you're dead.

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Nicole (:

Dix-Huit Ans . Blessés Et De La Haine .

We are scared .

We are tired .

Lying doesnt change the fact that we are .

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Nicole (:

Dix-Sept Ans. Suis-Je Assez?

Who's it going to hurt , really ?

Hmm .

Who's it gonna hurt .

My heads bleeding from all my pulling of hair and scratching of head .

I do need a fucking life where no one cares .

Then , I could bleed all I want .

That's sweeter than apple pie .

Quote : An apple a day makes the doctors go jobless someday.

(Makes fucking sense dont it?)

Today is a red day.

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Nicole (:

Seize . Mon Anniversaire Est Aujourd'Hui .

Happy 15th birthday Peter , My Spiderman ! (:

Haha . Thanks for not being there on my birthday ! xD . Hahahaha . Happy birthday maan . I absolutely looove your new sunglassers . You better get me that for christmas ! Hahaha . Thanks for wishing me happy birthday for about a million times so I could say it back to you .

Happy 15th birthday Nicole , Myself ! (:

Hahaha . I guess I had a pretyt good birthday myself . Chloe and the Gang tried to surprise me . But Auntie June and Luter kinda spoilt it . ( Kinda funny they're both Gans and both QUITE blurr ? xD ) . It's okay . Your intentions are good . I know I know . SO FAR , 93 people wished me happy birthday !

1. Yi Shuen

2. Zacky - Skinnie (:

3 . Lawrence

4. Kenneth

5. Ilham

6. Brian (:

7. Chloee Wongg

8. Ru Yee

9. Jia Ling

10. Yee Xin

11. Krystal

12. Peter (:

13. Faris

14. Eleena

15. Li Shuen

Hahaha . Hi Yi Shuen ! (:

It's been great . All the times we had together , how we watched each other grow . I dont think I'd ever find someone else like you . Haha . Good luck in your new school . You suck cause you're not doing PMR . But I still loove you . Even if you're leaving me , Arya and the gang to suffer . Hahaha (:

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Nicole (:

I'm standing on the egde.
Empty,
like the winds that whip past my fingers,
the wispy air that fills my lungs.
The sorrow engulfs me,
drowning me in utter darkness.
I cannot see.
Nor hear.
This silence is closing onto me,
encasing me in its quiet whipers,
this chilling cold that replaced my warmth,
Since when did this happen ?
Since when were we going to grow apart?
The precise sharpness of your preceptions.
The way you know how everything was going to work out.
The best of times we've had together when we laughed,
cried,
screamed,
hated,
loved.

I hug my legs towards my chest,
humming a tuneless song,
a songless tune.
Memories filled my head,
as the rears that filled my eyes.
Did we ever wish for this?
I smiled,
Nah, we've never.
Never thought of it.
Never wanted it.
I watched the picturesque scenery unfold before me.
The magnificent sun starts down the hill,
pulling down it's brilliant sunrays together with it.
The night sky fills the world instead,
the stars hung in the air,
shining brigther than any light in the sky.

It's done.
I'm done.
I wipe up the last of my tears,
gazing up as the world transforms before my eyes.
The nature unfolding , taking course.
I feel a weight off my chest,
the pain turning into a distant dull ache ,
seeping deep into my skin.
It's not over.
This thing we have,
the things we shared.


It never, ever was (:
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This is the last official day YEOH YI SHUEN is going to be at school . Hahaha , so that was dedicated to her. Haha . I dont think I've ever had a friend like Yi Shuen . She's different . Different from all those other type of girls you can get . No one can get any real-er that this girl (: . Hahah . She helps listen when I have to talk , helps talk when I NEED to listen to someone . If I could change anything about her , I wouldnt .

Her unique sense of humour fills me with curiousity everyday . Her sudden burst of hyperness is senselessly retarded . Her awkwardly straightforward comments bring me back to reality everytime I start wondering off. She keeps me real , she doesnt judge , she cant ever read me wrong . You cant get any better than that .

Yi Shuen / Nicole

I'm leaving.

Haha . Wait ... WHAT !?

I'm leaving school.

Oh . When ?

This August .

...

So how ?

...

Eyh , mama .

YOU STUPID AH YOU ? WHY YOU NEVER TELL ME ?

Hahaha . Dont know .

EH , YOU DAMN BAD LAAH YOU .

I only told Kang Se...

AND YOU NEVER TELL ME FIRST ? WHAT LAAH YOU ?

Haha . Sorry laah (:

It's okay .When August ?

25th before your trials .

YOU'RE NOT GONNA DO YOUR TRIALS ?

Nope . I go international school maah .

Eh , Nicole .

Rambles rambles rambles ..

WOI .

Huh ?

What am I going to do without you ?

No Yi Shuen , what am I going to do without you ?

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Nicole (:

Quatorze . Sondage .

Hahaha . I know I did 2 posts in a row (:

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A. Andrew Chen ! (: Daddie !
1) Do you love this person?
- Yess I do (:
2) Is this person your enemy?
- Why the hell would he be ? :/
3) Would you kiss this person?
- Duh :D

B. Ben Samuel ! (:
1) What do you really think of this person?
- He's so adorable ! (:
2) What’s his favourite colour?
- Haha .. Ehh ..
3) Ever danced with them?
- Nope ! He doesnt even let anyone hug him ! (:

C. Casady , Alex ! (:
1) Do you have a crush on this person?
- Naah (:
2) Have you ever had a crush on them?
- Noooo .
3) How old is she?
- I think he's 17 :D

D. Dalton Seat
1) How long have you known him/her?
- Ermmm .. I'm not that sure (:
2) Biggest regret?
- None . SO FAR :D
3) Do you hate this person?
- Haha . Never will (:

E. Edwin Yap ! (:
1) Have you met his parents?
- Nope (:
2) Worst thing about this person?
- Nothing laah . A bit quiet (:
3) Best thing about this person?
- Hahaha . He's ... He can sing pretty well ! (:

F. Fredes , Chris ! (:
1) Have you ever dated this person?
- Nyehh (:
2) When is the next time you will see him ?
- Maybe the next time he comes down to Malaysia ! (:
3) Do you go to school with them?
- Nope . He schools outerspace ! (:

G. Gillian Wong ! (:
1) Are they a good listener?
- Haha . No not really ! :D
2) Have you ever lied to make this person feel better?
- NOPE (:
3) Is this person good looking?
- She's very very cute ! (:

H. Harold , Yap Joon Fai ! (:
1) What grade are they in?
- Form 5 (:
2) Is he/she your friend?
- DUH .
3) Ever done something illegal with this person?
- Hever (:

I. Ilham ! (:
1) What is this person’s favourite food?
- Whatever also can :D
2) How did you meet this person?
- Same class as my brother
3) Do you trust him?
- Of course! :)

J. Jonathan ! (:
1) Do they have any siblings?
- Yeah . A pair of twin younger brothers and an older sister (:
2) Do you know their favourite song?
- He likes ... No I dont (:
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you?
- Hahaha . That would be scary (:

K. Keat Rui , Tan ! (:
1) How old were you when you first met?
- Form 1 (:
2) How did you meet?
- Classmates !
3) Ever danced with this person?
- HAHA . Funnyy (:

L. Li Ean
1) What would you do if you had a crush on this person?
- I dont think I would (:
2) Do you like him/her as a friend?
- Of course! :)
3) Would you go to Disney World with this person?
- Yeah! Definitely! How random is this question?

M. Melissa Tee
1) Is this person older than you?
- Yes. (:
2) Is this person single?
- Yeapp .
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week?
- Idk :D

N. Natalie Tan ! (:
1) Is this person your boyfriend/girlfriend?
- Nope (:
2) Have you seen this person cry?
- Nope.
3) Do you know this person’s middle name?
- No . HAHA :D

O. Ong JianKai ! (:
1) Are you related?
- Nope (:
2) Could you live with this person?
- Yeah. Definitely! :)
3) What school do they go to?
- IDK xD . Some Singaporean bording school (:

P. Pang, Daniel (:
1) Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
- Nope. :/
2) How about a sleepover with them?
- Nope. :/
3) Does this person have a job?
- Yeah . A teacher (:

Q. Qistina Andrews
1) Does this person drink alcohol?
- Dunno
2) Have you seen this person dance?
- Yup. :)
3) Who do they " like "?
- Hmmmm . Dunno (:

R. Ryan Tan ! (:
1) Have you heard this person sing?
- YESS ! OH GOD YESS ! :D
2) Do you think this person will repost this?
- HAHAHAHA . No :/
3) When does this person look best?
- When he's goofing around . Ily Ryaan ! (:

S. Shaun Tan ! (:
1) Is this person taller than you?
- Yes . By a teenyweenybit (:
2) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her?
- Yes I do . He's so multi-talented ! (:
3) Do they live close to you?
- Yes . He's my neighbour ! (:

T. Teh , Adranne ! (:
1) Would you do anything for him/her?
- Anything in the world ! (:
2) Have you been to his/her house?
- Naah . So bad xD .
3) Where do they live?
- They were supposed to move to Tropicana ! (:

U. U-Jin
1) Is this person in a relationship?
- I don't know (:
2) When is the last time you saw him/her?
- Umm .. A few days ago ! (:
3) What colour hair does this person have?
- black, I think.

V. Voong , Erik ! (:
1) Does he have a crush on you?
- Nope . He's 20+ xD .
2) Would you hug this person?
- Yes! Anytime. :)
3) Is this person your friend?
- Always . Bitches yo (:

W. Weng Yan, Loke
1) Is this person loud or quiet?
- I dont know (:
2) Describe this person:
- Umm .. Blur xD .
3) What colour eyes does this person have?
- Black (:

X. Xinyi, Law ! (:
1) Why are you friends with him/her?
- Okay laah (:
2) Have you ever gone anywhere with them?
- Cheer ? (:
3) What is one thing you would change about them?
- I wouldn't change anything about her. She's perfect the way she is. :)

Y. Yeoh Yi Shuen ! *:
1) Does this person wear make-up?
- HAHA . Funnny :D
2) Does this person play any instruments?
- umm , the drums . And the guitar and piano , I think (:
3) What is their favourite sport?
- SWIMMING ! (:

Z. Zhu Yee , Chloe (:
1) Does this person have MSN?
- Yup! :)
2) Have you ever made out with this person?
- WTF EW xD .
3) When will you see this person next?
- Tomorrow ! We're making smoothies together ! (:


Hahaha . I doubt anyone would read this ! :D

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Nicole ! (:

Treize . Pour Toujours Et Un Jour .

It was Eli's birthday yesterday Hahaha . Iloveyouu !

Ballet's kinda boring without you ! And Natalie . I used to try and guess her undieewear colour whenever she ( used to ) come to class . It's been so long since I've seen you guys ! Aahh . Miss youu ! xD .

Hahahahaha . Loooves (: .

Today was a bore . Nothing exciting happened . Had some geo test . I wrote this when I had free time after finishing it (:

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Forever And A Day

Fragile .
Like a heart dangling on a string.
Enticingly beautiful,
this melodious voice that calls out,
this stragely comforting sensation within,
this urge to hear more,
feel more.
This longing I cannot decieve.
You mesmerize me,
your words dwindle in my thoughts.
Day.
Night.
Like a broken recording tape.
This beauty that you posses.
This uniqueness I ponder upon .

For each passing moment,
a part of you disappears.
You become more and more of a blur .
I am addicted.
Like an overdose of drugs.
This depth I know of you,
comes from everywhere and nowhere.
too many folds to get to you,
each one unwrapping a different phase,
a different past.
But I'll be there.
in a fraction of a second,
in a fragment of a heartbeat.
Even if we are apart,
even if we are no longer around.
I know I will be there.
Forever, and a day (:
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Nicole (:

Douze . Joyeux Anniversaire .

Fatigue gnaws at my consciousness ,
this corrupted little mind that I am slipping into.
The sounds of hellish cries that fill my head,
their frenzied high pitched screams like death over a man.
the smell of burning flesh engulfing my thoughts,
suffering pain that a mortal could never endure.
I live in this world of macabre and horror,
where I can only feel naked fear,
no more control over my own will,
then a slave to his master.
Twilight dances on the trees and tainted glass,
their blood singing praises of the dead.
Since when did the undying became the living?
The lights blinding me,
with their shine like torches in the sky.
The world is corrupted,
the morbid fantasies escapes with all of reality.
Death is a blessing.
It is a point where I do not think any longer.
Why am I trying to understand things I do not comprehend?
Slowly ,
I feel pressure on my eyes.
I have sunk to a depth where it was impossible to overcome.
The chances are few,
the possibilities fewer.
The hollows of these empty walls,
that I am floating endlessly in,
in my eternity.
I exist where a mind is tainted by death and horror.
Would I be able to perceive?
Gone was the joy I felt in years.
Gone was the time where I knew what it was like to live.
Gone, in a fraction of a second.
Where my dreams have turned against all reality,
and reign my world with it's hate for the living.
The sweetness I've tasted in my very existence.
Gone .


Gone Forever.

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Nicole (:

Onze . Veux Qu'elle Se Taire .

Days pass by endlessly , and she lost count of them , each merely drowned with sorrow and murderous rage . She took out a cigarette from the packet and slipped it between her parched , torn lips . The flame from the lighter flickered as she held it close to her lips , drawing warmth from the light she had . The smoke dissipated into her lungs as she took a deep long drag . The menthol filled her head like drugs , the nicotine biting into her willpower , leaving her gasping for more . She shove the change into her jumper pocket and stepped out of the shop .

The cold biting air did nothing to her numb skin . She slipped her hand into her pocket , the other, still holding the cigarette between her fingers . Her hands were shaking , her lips quivering . Was it from the cold ? Or the rage ? The little conscious she had kept her awake enough to continue walking down the lane . Snow fell softly onto the whitish ground below and a slight chill hung in the air . People walk past her like nothing ever went wrong in their perfect little lives , like everything has always been there when they wanted it . She shook her head and slipped further into her own trapped , corrupted little mind .

She hopped over the fence easily , sliding down to the cold grass lawn . She sunk into her thoughts , her eyes red and worn out . When suddenly he came .

It was like the world had become brighter . Like her heart would swell up so much it would burst inside her and she would feel no pain . Her blood sang as she stood up . She had a swagger in her first step . She smiled . When did love ever feel like this ? The way it would make a heart stop in a fraction of a second . The way it would make one's life feel perfect by just looking at them . She looked at him . From his soft hair , to his brown eyes . She watched as his fingers traced her waist , pulling her closer to him . She could feel the passion burning within them in that moment .

Nothing else mattered . She dropped her cigarette and heard it sizzle to death on the snow covered ground . For all the mattered she doesnt care . She doesnt care if all the crumpled money in her pocket was the only thing that was going to keep her alive from now . She doesnt care if the cigarette she took was the trigger to her death . All that mattered was right here . Right now . In this moment , where everything else couldnt have mattered .

She found her fingers entangled in his hair as they embraced each other . The lust was flying in the air as he slowly pursed his lips and touched hers . He slipped his fingers into her dark , tangled hair , and pulled her closer . Their passion was vibrant and strong . Their tongues swirled and danced around , and without even using words , she was already telling him everything that went wrong with her life . The arguments , the lack of money . Everything fell into place . Into that one moment .

' It doesnt matter . ' he whispered .

And she believed him . She believed him with everything she could . Who cared is the world would crumble to pieces ? Who cares if nothing had gone right for her ? At least something did . The one thing that made her complete , her other perfect half of the circle . She smiled , like she has never done in such a long time , she almost forgot how to . He caressed her cheek with the back of his hand , whispering that everything was going to be okay . She listened and nodded to it , like it was a trance music . She was tangled up in his beautiful voice . The one that made her calm , the addiction worst than her cigarettes . She broke down whenever she was with him . He knew everything about her . He was the key to her heart , the light of her soul , however cliche it sounded .

When they broke apart , she realized tears were streaming down her cheeks .
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The sky, it burns itself out,

so take a picture of his cross...

a life once given

for a life not lived, is a life still lost

so take a glimpse of her heart

of a love once believed,

a hope once forgotten.

analyse her feelings, and RIP them apart...

Leave her body dry, but not till she starts to rot

- Putera Zamir (: . Weeee ~
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Nicole (:

Dix . Sous-Estimation De L'année

Love . I suck on the word till I reached the bitter tang of it at the back of my tongue . Is it even a feeling we can describe ? The lust , the love . No words could be used to explain this high , crazy , feeling we feel inside when we are in love . But when we're not . It's empty .

Empty would be an understatement .

The feeling of loneliness that sinks deep within our skin . The anger you feel, with no one to share it with but yourself . The hurt . The pain . The frustration . You keep it all to yourself , bottled up bit by bit like a bug , ready to burst when the moment springs . The anger turns to numb slits at your hands and legs . The way the blood carries out all the bad feelings that we have inside . The way it becomes like prescribed pills , a drug, enslaving your own body's limitations . It's thrilling . Eye-catching . It is a way to be noticed .

The girl who has no friends . The girl who cant stop cutting herself . The girl who wants attention . The girl who does drugs . The girl who couldnt bother to be friends with anyone . The girl who was snobby . The girl who doesnt bother to comunicate with anyone because they were too high class . Rumours . Lies . It cuts deep , deeper than skin . But, it catches attention . Care ? Love ?









Naah .

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Nicole (:

Neuf - Mauvaise Interprétation Erronée

Hahahaa . Ohh god this is funny :D . I'm laughing non stoppp ! :D .

Okay wait okay wait . Let me gather myself (:

Sigghhhhhhhhhhh .... Loooooonnnngg siiiggggghhhh .

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I'm dedicating this post to the person who misunderstood me (: .

My family , my best friend , is Lucas , but not in the post . It is my other friend . He's my neighbour , that I have known for an extremely long time . Like , since he was born . We were close LIKE family . It's not that we ARE family . He is my best friend, for an extremely long time , since ever . We shared everything , crushes , secrets , we know each other inside out . There is nothing much to say about that (:

Next , his ex girlfriend is like who you think you are . Extremely similiar , but worst . Much much much worst . She's not from our school , and is , definitely a cheap slut . She cannot stick to one guy , and did flirt with a lot . She told my best friend that she was bored of him , but then wanted to get back with him too . And she was PRETTY desperate about it . Hahahaha (:

Okay . I see her a lot cause I go out with my neighbour a lot . He always brings her and she always dresses very , ummm , little . VERY little . She's very rude , and doesnt really talk to me , and talks about me behind my back . Then , my friend will tell me and I'd get very very very pissed off , because she says are FAAR worst than the onces you can think of . She is pretty chubby in the sense that she hasnt really lot her baby fat (:

SHE DOES SMOKE .

And again you mistook me . I didnt say you did smoke . She kisses girls all the time when she was with my best friend . She cant keep her fingers to herself , and she thought she was really coooool and stuff . Now , my best friend has a NEW girlfriend . She's not that new cause they have been together since last year December . I approve of her cause she dresses appropriately , talks nicely , doesnt have a short temper , and doesnt talk behind my back . But our good friend cannot take rejection and started to want my best friend back . The things she did to me were waaaay worst than the things I said online :D

FINALLY .

To say the truth , you are not half as bad as she is cause she is at a totally different league from ANYONE in our school . Oh . Btw , she did get an ugly boyfriend . He's a player . Super easy to get , that sort . It is impossible to like someone like him , and I dont know why she did . And he's as stupid as her . Anyway , you might go around asking who my best friend is or why am I doing this post , well , I dont think you'd find out . Sorry if you misunderstood (:

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Okaaay . Thank you to the girl with the ubergoober long hair to tell me cause most of the time , no one reads my blog , and I only use it to rant out my anger . Hahaa . And I havent been updating it . My mum keeps taking the computer away so that Lucas wont use it (:

Hahhaa . Okay I'm done typing (:

But just so you know , if I really do spite you , I wouldn't do it in such an ugly manner . I think you deserve way more than that . Dont be snobby next time and think that everything I type has to do with you either (:
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Nicole ! (: