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I'm waiting helplessly. I can't do anything at all. It's just his body dipped in ice water and a drip. He's hardly breathing and I'm so cold. Save him, oh God. Save him for me, and for my entire family. I want him, I need him. I need him so much. And I'm so scared. I'm shaking, I'm cold, I'm a disaster. Save him, please. Please please please. I'm so lost. It feels like I didn't do enough, didn't give him enough attention. Didn't give him all the things he wanted. It feels like I'm the cause. I'm the very reason. So for me, and for every atom of this aching body, save him for me or a part of me will die along with him.